New leaf

Afternoon, world!

It's been a few eons since my last blog. I think I'm just not a journal kind of gal, but sometimes it's nice to write out your feelings. (Man, I AM a girl.)

So my new leaf these days is to be calm, confident, and learn from everything. I had a bit of a quarrel with friend/roommate Staci (still quarrelling, aka not speaking), and after some sound advice from Jack M, I'm feeling ok with myself, instead of stressed to the point of tears, which is how our previous fights often leave me.

In general, I'm trying not to speak as much. It seems that if you look people in the eye and don't try to fill every void with explanations for everything, you can learn and hear a lot. It also helps to build confidence. Other things I'm trying to do:

-Try NOT to make assumptions
-Try to focus on how situations affect other people, and not on myself all the time - or do I do this too much already? I'm at least trying to find a nice balance.
-Try to learn from EVERYTHING
-Try not to gossip
-Try not to let myself get caught up and upset over small conflicts - I'm more vulnerable than I thought, so I need to clarify what's important enough to really affect my quality of life. It's hard!

This is pretty touch-feely stuff, but I think it's going to help me. And since this blog is all about me . . . .