Today was a lull. Everybody else in the house spent much of the day at church or with church friends. I stayed in. Could've worked on my online course, cleaned a little, gone for a walk, looked into job openings, given myself a pedicure, whatevs. What DID I do? I sat around, read, ate junk food, and watched TV. From time to time, a day like this recharges me. But having been out of work and spending half of my time lounging, this wasn't exactly a much-needed break. So by the end of the day, I had a headache from my dehydration, TV-watching, and general lack of activity.
I was also starting to feel sorry for myself. No friends in town, hanging out with my mom, sitting around idle, etc. I can't call Kurt or Traci to go to a movie. Got a little lonely.
Then Geno (my brother closest to me in age) called for a quick chat. That was nice. Mom and Joe got home from church, and I started to feel a little trapped. Judged, even, which I think I was pretty much projecting. But then Suzanne called just to say hi, see how I was doing after the last couple of weeks, etc. Thoughtful. Feeling a little better. Later tonight, Kurt called to check in. It was so nice talking to him - normalcy. Some fresh air from the real world in my head. Thank goodness. Or thank God? I dunno.
Sidenote: with the brainless feeling I get from watching most of today's television, I am greatly appreciative of the escapism provided by books. It's nice to have the time for them.
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