Then sings my soul

I'm not religious. I'm not even Christian anymore. I tried for a long time, and ended up agnostic. At all costs, I'm avoiding telling certain relatives, to avoid strained relationships and broken hearts. But the truth is still there; I don't have that faith.

Still. I've been going to church. This has mostly been under the influence of others (visitors and whatnot), but jeez louise, I've gotten a lot out of it. There's a Catholic (gasp!) church downtown that fills me with goodwill, hope, and general inspiration. It's also making me rethink things in difficult, healthy, emotionally challenging ways.

Basically it's making me feel all these feelings I think I've been avoiding. And even though I still don't feel religious, Christian, faithful, whatever, I like what's happening. Deep breaths.