Being a Grown Up

is hard. My crush and I have started dating, which is really nice. He's all kinds of nice. But he's quickly become all kinds of suffocating. Now, in the past, I *may* have been quick to judge some dudes, finding deal breakers early on, and cutting things off before they could really get started. I felt totally comfortable with these decisions, but they've been mentioned as bad habits by some friends, so I'm trying to be more patient than usual.

Therefore, instead of thinking, "Gah, he obviously doesn't get it. Game over.", I'm going to try to have a talk with him about it. Hold back my judgments as much as I can, and try to pre-repair, or something. It's odd, because all of his past mistakes that make him feel self conscious or loserish are things that don't bother me so much. People make mistakes, we learn, we move on. But these inherent habits are harder for me to accept, even ones like this that are extremely well intentioned.

Anyway, I'm making him dinner tomorrow, and hopefully will get ballsy enough to get this out in the open.

In other news, I might roadtrip down to Pekin this weekend to Finally get our couch. Still up in the air; no logistics are anywhere near settled. It'll be nice to get a couch. Some day.